I Lost My God

I lost my god...... my dad......on the Janmashtami night..... He left us at the time of Krishna's birth..... I was sitting right in front of him..... but.... but.... he just left me and went away, without calling me to accompany him as usual..... my dad left me and went away, but I know I wont leave him......

Empty Vessel

"Don't eat my brains OK?"

I shouted at her,

"Whats there to eat?"

She whispered huskily-

"Its an empty vessel"

Rich they are

They change costumes-

Per hour,

Immensely rich they are,

But 'inherited' 'wealth'!

My god,

Still see the stable state of mine,

Naked-

Mother naked I am!

Forgiven Passion

I am sorry if this looks vulgar.... If viewers feel so, I am at their disposal to remove this post.... I doubt whether I crossed the limits of decency..... But I never thought so while I scribbled the same....

I caressed and kissed at her toes,

Moved up to the knees and her singing thighs,

I stuck at her girdle, she shrank back,

My spending lips snuggled up to her lofty waist-

It caved in as if to great my thirsty stay,

I felt the flush of new born buds in her,

Streaming sparks stretched her seeking senses,

She stooped down, pulled me up to her subtle sweets,

Thick braid of her hair, breathing a gleam of hope-

Reached down with a rapture and wrapped up my face,

I swayed in swift at her surging waves,

I am tossed in to a trance, while she tilted my face-

Guided me to her floral lips gemmed with gasps,

I kissed with gentle sips to relish her wine,

Her flaming flaps fancied my heavenly free-fall,

With a gale of greed, I greeted her graces!

Reasons

These are the reasons I lost her....

I chose her silence-

To listen her words,

And I closed my eyes-

To see her closer!

Little Kid

Always she talks,

Boasts about her father,

But she knows not-

That I am-

Her great grand father!

What is hope

That was what left as a hope for me....... A half opened door dictated me what is hope!

The hour-glass of my life-
Dribbled out in swift-
Seeing her leaving me-
Leaving all unsaid.

She left my floor-
Let the door half-opened,
What it was left there-
The half-opened door-left as my hope!

Caretakers

Her eyes where moist,
Lips pink and soft,
Sun birds spotted her swift,
Darted from bloom to bloom-
To drink her nectar-
With at most care!

Fair winds and good chase!

I lost her-
In the excitements of their chase!

I love you

I don't know when I died....
But she confirmed her truth as my death......
Anyway I liked it......

"The wounds which-
You inflicted-
Still bleeds-
But it hurts not-
Because I love you."

She smiled.

"Its my win,
If the wounds-
Yet not hurts you,
Its that you are dead,
Accept my truth-Bye!"

Disposable Head and Love

She is sincere!
See, what she did…..
I should pay no? I paid….. I should not cheat her….
As she never cheated me… She cheated none for centuries…..

You displayed my head-
On your shoulder, dear?
And displaced now?

Had it been-
A disposable head, dear?
Then why cant it be a good deal?

I paid in the hands-
Of the tidings of your Time, dear!
I paid and bade you farewell.

I know, you have-
Many roads in your jungle, dear!
Not the doom, but your boon, dear!

Wingless Love

I never tried to know what else she was..... But I loved her.......

Arguments seemed died-
In its own tracks,
What left as the rest-
A moist mystic continent!

I lost my wings-
In the winds of god,
Moreover I lost,
I lost her knowing eyes!

Wingless me,
Knowing restless not,
Again I nested-
I nested for my last Spring!

My pains-An Explosion

I was not supposed to reach there that day and at that time..... I was amazed to see her there..... I never did act in the past..... But for the first time...... I did...... I never knew that I will go for it..... It was for the first time and I never knew.........

Coincidence it was,
I met her,
After many years,
After many years!

As usual,
She seemed conceived-
But this time-
Physically!

I was moved-
For the first time,
"Hello... Its you....
......Sree?"

"No....
I am not....."
She left,
I am lost.

I dragged-
My lifeless body out-
And threw it-
To the street....

"Hi......"
My eye balls moved,
Its her-
Right in front of me!

"You... Surya...?"
My answer was a reflex,
"No......Sorry....
I am not Surya...."

We both-
Had been together-
For five years-but-
Never talked.

We met after six years,
We talked-
For the first time-
And for the last time!

The Great Her

I saw her never while she was in front of me..... A pair of my useless eyes no?
Same time she sees me.... sees me..... my god, she sees me.......

We are together,
She sees me ever,
But-
I saw her never,
Rather-
I saw her ever!

Injury

Let me disclose the fact.... I cant hide my truth...... Sorry, if any feels hurt......

Everyday I repent,
I have to-

Repeating,
The cause of repentance
Is my style of repenting!

Inherent injuries!

Dont say

Wont say... So don't say......
Not said means, never not known! So simple to go through!

Virgin waves wafted a vow,
Welcomed the waiter to wed,
West only the witness-
Twisted its window,
Womb less are the waves-
Wedded the coast!

Waves wont be wives-
Wind would say,
Waves are the whores-
Waves wont say!

Romance

What a romance! Great..... A born blind wont know what is blindness....

Don't fool me man,
Its pity you-
Getting excited-
On Sun rise and Sun set.

Don't you know-?
That I am the genius?
Mind you-
I am blind!

Unwinding

Its so funny........ But its so inevitable..... That is how it turns up!

I do hate-
Murmurs and whispers,
But now,
I do the same-
"Hey! I am here..."
Obviously-
To the pitch dark,

Unencumbered unwinding!

Gasp

After a long gap…… I am here with a gasp!

Hell around-
Dirty tribes,
Beggars,
Labors, patients,
Stray dogs, pets and animals,
Crows and flies,
Worthless immovable,
Pity top and bottom!

But I love-
I love to be there-
Where nothing lives beyond me-
My make up room!

Digits

One plus one?
Zero!

I am all alone-
Still in the same class,
Failed in math….

Miss

I knew-

That I know,

And you knew-

That you only know!

Blind me

……always I forgot,
To remind me-
That you are there-
But-
Within a body!

Kiss me

She should kiss me-

As I kissed her twice,

She cheats me-

And kisses many,

My life I lived,

Dreaming her kisses!

Come, come and kiss me-

Kiss me once-

Receive me back-

Call me back,

You-

Cheater death!

Recognition....

Previous night was stormy.... So I reached out to see the nature mimicking my inner... Suddenly I heard a cry.... I saw something falling down from the coconut tree... 2 'kids'.... I covered them with some cloths.... I am committed by nature to give the kids back to their mom.... I waited for her.... Today she came.... 14 long hours I was waiting for her.... She came running to her kids.... took them one by one by her mouth.... And went away to the safest haven..... But she never recognized me.... never looked at me..... But I am happy now, that my cam 'caught' her....